Another Day Before…another night of feeling like I did not do enough this week. I think no matter how well I did in a week I would always feel like I could have done more. I spent this entire week…ENTIRE WEEK sitting in front of my computer fixing my photos. I think Apple could hire me now to be a Genius Bar peep…I have spent hours and hours on the phone with Apple people trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with my Photos app. I finally just wiped my OS and started from scratch. I am now downloading 45,000 images from the iCloud. Oh they joys. I REALLY hope I have it figured out this time. As much as I enjoy looking at my photos I am going to be REALLY happy with this project is behind me.

Yesterday was filled with cravings and hunger. Today was better than yesterday. I am really really really over the 30/10 food. I think I am learning towards taking a break from it and learning how to eat regular normal foods again. I would still go in to 30/10 every week and meet with my coach but be doing it using 100% my own food. It would be AMAZING if I could do that and still lose weight. It would be like a fantasy dream world really. So I will talk with my coach about this more tomorrow. I weight myself again today and still down…that scale better be right!!!

Trying to focus on the goal has been huge this week…remembering why I am doing this and using some of the techniques I have learned to get past the cravings have helped. It is hard to use them all the time. It really does take some brain power to engage and use those strategies whenever hunger and cravings strike. It is WAY easier to just eat _____ and move on but that is what got me here in the first place. I have also been listening to the Self Mastery “tapes” (yes…this is also an app) and those also might be helping. I listen to it right as I am going to bed. I don’t think I have made it through a session yet before falling asleep but the docs say that does not matter. Your brain is listening and taking it all in as you sleep. Whatever…as long as those positive thoughts and intentions sink in I don’t care HOW they got there! Hopefully my brain IS this smart and its doing its think while I get some beauty sleep!

Tomorrow is a PACKED but FUN day! I have my 30/10 session, session with David, meeting a friend to pick up our new work computers, then dinner with another friend to talk about 30/10, a quick mail run, grocery store, then home by 10pm…or so I hope. I have my food packed and ready to go and am already planning on indulging tomorrow at dinner. Not a perfect on-plan day but not a train wreck either. Oh planning…such a love/hate relationship I have with it. Wish me luck and “lightness”!