Day 180: Painful

“The choices you have made with addiction were once intelligent, adaptive life skills intending to support your very survival. Everyone’s “life skills” set is generated out of his or her earliest life experiences and experiments. Our early attempts to understand, soothe, enjoy, connect, belong, or express ourselves, to name a few of our fundamental human needs, were all mini-research experiments for life…your early research discovered that food…worked to soothe, numb, or distract you, or to create a sense of agency of control. Food became a medium through which you met your needs. Sadly they became painfully overused, maladaptive, and ineffective. This leads you to your current circumstances: with a skill set that lacks a diverse set of tools for responding to life.” Sarahjoy Marsh Continue reading Day 180: Painful

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Days 137-141: An Old Plan

Relapse is the actual usage. But what it takes to get to relapse can be a long and drawn out process. Relapse involves behaviors, thoughts, and feelings. I have certain behaviors, thoughts, and feelings that trigger my need/desire/want to overeat. If I can recognize these behaviors, thoughts, and feelings and acknowledge them for what they are I have a very good change of not relapsing. I can also recognize and focus on behaviors, thoughts, and feelings that will take me further and further away from relapse and into recovery when I am in the relapse spectrum. Continue reading Days 137-141: An Old Plan

The absurdity of women’s clothing sizes, in one chart – The Washington Post

This is ABSURD! Another example of companies creating a hostile environment for women! Great QUICK article on the stupidness of American vanity and the quest for “beauty”. What size am I? April-sized! The absurdity of women’s clothing sizes, in one chart – The Washington Post. Continue reading The absurdity of women’s clothing sizes, in one chart – The Washington Post

Thoughts on Finding “Full”

“Instead of seeing hunger as a negative thing, see it as a positive thing, Instead of dwelling on hunger, contemplate its opposite: fullness. Purna, or purnata, he explained, is both fullness in eating, and also the idea of perfection, wholeness, the entire universe complete unto itself, you wholly and fully yourself.” Continue reading Thoughts on Finding “Full”

DAY 7: RESULTS! (This is a pretty epic post…you for SURE want to read it)

I am understanding that my addiction is not a source of shame. It is apart of me now and has been for a LONG time and there is no changing that. How I interact with the addiction will change. But to do so I also have to make it human…I have to make it a tangible part of me. I have to acknowledge it, talk to it, interact with it, keep it public and open. Continue reading DAY 7: RESULTS! (This is a pretty epic post…you for SURE want to read it)

FAIL

There HAS to be something wrong…there just has to be. I am active…I eat good…I don’t sit around round all day…but what if I DO the super hard work of just committing to a drastic program or shift and my health issue are STILL there? What if I lose a bunch of weight and I still have shit wrong? What if I try to lose a bunch of weight and I don’t? It will be my FIRST failure…people will know I failed… Continue reading FAIL

When You Lose Weight, Where Does it Go? The Answer May Surprise You

Originally posted on Mitch Kirby:
Recently, I was sitting and thinking about all of the diet and exercise suggestions that constantly bombard us from all sides. While trying to determine which techniques would likely yield the largest benefits, I decided to start… Continue reading When You Lose Weight, Where Does it Go? The Answer May Surprise You