It is hard to hear that this was the best week with such a small loss. I feel very conditioned to only think and concern myself with my weight number. Even though 30/10 really only focuses on your visceral fat loss and your total body fat composition, the weight number is the easiest to understand. I cant see my actual fat but I can see what I look like. The less I weight the better I will look…right? Continue reading Day 34: Mixed Results
All of the skills and techniques and understanding that has occurred over these past few weeks is not lost on me…but in the moment of dispare and anger and feelings of deprivation those things escape your brain. Its like you have dementia…you forget it all and ALL you can think about and focus on is the negative things. Continue reading Days 21-27: Struggles
This was the question I found myself asking these past few days. Why ME? WHY do I have to do such a restrictive program to release my weight? WHY do I feel like I am the only one struggling with … Continue reading Days 19 & 20: Why ME?
Lost: unable to find one’s way; not knowing one’s whereabouts.
Found: having been discovered by chance or unexpectedly, in particular.
Continue reading Days 15-19: Lost and Found
“Why am I doing this again? Why am I not eating __________ or drinking __________? Who am I? What day is it? Where am I? Are those GUMMY BEARS? FMLFMLFMLFMLFML” Continue reading DAY THREE: Resistance is still possible…but it sucks and I don’t want to do it anymore!
There HAS to be something wrong…there just has to be. I am active…I eat good…I don’t sit around round all day…but what if I DO the super hard work of just committing to a drastic program or shift and my health issue are STILL there? What if I lose a bunch of weight and I still have shit wrong? What if I try to lose a bunch of weight and I don’t? It will be my FIRST failure…people will know I failed… Continue reading FAIL
Thee Struggle is REAL! 